Four blocks

Today was my son’s first official full day of kindergarten. A day filled with anticipation, excitement, nervousness and unknowns. And not just for him. If you’ve had the experience of launching a child into the post-preschool world, then you are familiar with the anxiety of a parent who is hoping for the most positive experience for his or her child. But for me, as with most new experiences in my not-so-new-anymore HIBM life,  there is another dimension to my anxiety. The sadness. There is a period of mourning that always has to take place with new situations. I have to confront new losses and thereby disrupt the homeostasis that I had previously worked so hard to maintain. I have to be reminded that I only get to feel happy and comfortable in my routine for so long.  This wonderful milestone of kindergarten for my son and our family, this “first” for him,  is unfortunately at the bottom of a long and growing list of first losses for me. Read more “Four blocks” →