{"id":594,"date":"2017-12-20T20:15:08","date_gmt":"2017-12-21T03:15:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livingwithhibm.com\/?p=594"},"modified":"2021-05-26T22:09:13","modified_gmt":"2021-05-27T05:09:13","slug":"scary-uncertain-happy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/livingwithhibm.com\/?p=594","title":{"rendered":"Scary, Uncertain, Happy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>If you are someone who believes that life needs to be okay in order to feel okay, this piece is dedicated to you.<\/p>\n<p>I was once you.<\/p>\n<p>Before I was diagnosed with this disease, I believed that I could only be happy if life was working out the way I wanted it to or the way I believed I needed it to.<\/p>\n<p>Throughout the last almost 12 years, I have learned from where true happiness comes. I have learned that there is one essential ingredient required to sustain a fulfilling, meaningful and authentically happy life. Turns out, it\u2019s even backed up by scientific research and data.<\/p>\n<p>I invite you to read my latest column for the Jewish Journal, \u201cScary, Uncertain, Happy,\u201d to find out just what it is&#8230;<\/p>\n<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"PQfecRCh3F\"><p><a href=\"http:\/\/jewishjournal.com\/opinion\/228890\/scary-uncertain-happy\/\">Scary, Uncertain, Happy<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" style=\"position: absolute; clip: rect(1px, 1px, 1px, 1px);\" src=\"http:\/\/jewishjournal.com\/opinion\/228890\/scary-uncertain-happy\/embed\/#?secret=PQfecRCh3F\" data-secret=\"PQfecRCh3F\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8220;Scary, Uncertain, Happy&#8221; &#8212; Jewish Journal\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If you are someone who believes that life needs to be okay in order to feel okay, this piece is dedicated to you. I was once you. Before I was diagnosed with this disease, I believed that I could only be happy if life was working out the way I wanted it to or the<\/p>\n<div><a class=\"btn-filled btn\" href=\"https:\/\/livingwithhibm.com\/?p=594\" title=\"Scary, Uncertain, Happy\">Read More<\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":637,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-594","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/livingwithhibm.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/jjjjj6.png?fit=2250%2C1080&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p5aYbC-9A","jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":150,"url":"https:\/\/livingwithhibm.com\/?p=150","url_meta":{"origin":594,"position":0},"title":"Where to invest","author":"admin","date":"April 7, 2015","format":false,"excerpt":"I haven't written in a while. 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